The Perceptualware Post
#44 | September 2025
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Achieve More!
For years, I thought the answer was to push harder. Achieve more. Prove myself.
But every win left me restless, not relieved.
So I started asking: what exactly was I running from?
This week, I want to share:
Why we confuse “things” with the states we actually want.
The five states that quietly drive almost everything we do.
And the simple experiment that revealed my happiest moments weren’t about achieving more at all — but what I really needed to learn.
Under Attack
Whenever I slowed down, I didn’t feel peace. I felt attacked.
My own thoughts turned vicious:
You’re behind.
You’ll never measure up.
You should be doing more.
It was like walking around with a cattle prod in my own head—constantly shocking myself forward.
So I stayed busy. Work, people, distractions, the next thing. On the surface, it looked like ambition. But if I’m honest, I wasn’t running toward success—I was running away from myself.
Because being with myself felt unbearable.
The Experiment That Changed Everything
That began to shift when I tried something David Burns calls the Pleasure Predicting Sheet.
You list activities, predict how satisfying they’ll be, then rate them afterward for Pleasure and Mastery.
And here’s what stunned me: the highest-scoring moments weren’t big wins or social approval. They were small, often solitary:
Walking the dog.
Hiking or camping in nature.
Having a coffee with myself.
Writing this very newsletter.
Recording YouTube videos.
Taking photos, just because I noticed the light.
Even tinkering with code and building an app.
Shooting arrows at the range, unmasking a grouping.
None of these required applause. None of them rescued me from myself. They worked because they were with myself.
The sheet proved what I’d been blind to: my happiest times weren’t about escape. They were about learning how to actually enjoy being me.
The Bigger Question
That forced me to ask: If the best moments were right here, why had I been running so hard?
And maybe you’ve felt this too—where your drive to achieve doesn’t come from joy, but from fear.
Where goals aren’t just goals—they’re cover stories for escaping your own self-criticism.
If that’s the case, then the problem isn’t that you haven’t done enough. It’s that you don’t know how to stop punishing yourself when you pause.
The Five States Beneath It All
When I pulled the threads together, I realised: we don’t actually want things. We want states.
Almost everything funnels into five:
Calm – freedom from chaos.
Connection – not just with others, but with yourself.
Freedom – to steer your own life.
Growth – the spark of progress, however small.
Significance – knowing what you do matters.
The trap is confusing states with things.
Thinking money equals freedom.
Thinking approval equals connection.
Thinking success equals calm.
But things can’t deliver states. That’s why the treadmill never ends.
The Shift
The real shift wasn’t giving up on goals. It was giving up pain as fuel.
For years, I made myself so unhappy that suffering became my motivator. That’s why I couldn’t stop.
The breakthrough was realizing I could choose a different fuel: not “I’m not enough, so keep moving”—but “I already am enough, so what do I want to create today?”
That’s where the five states come in. Once I stopped mistaking things for states, I could build calm, connection, freedom, growth, and significance directly—without needing the cattle prod.
Your Challenge This Week
Write down three goals you’re chasing.
Then ask yourself:
- What state am I really after here?
- And what’s stopping me from creating that state today?
Because once you see the states underneath your goals, you don’t need to run away anymore. You can finally move forward—not from pain, but from enough.
Final Thought:
The real trap isn’t failing to achieve enough.
It’s never believing you are enough.
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Warm Wishes
—Chris @Perceptualware